For My Dad

My father is strange.  Seriously strange.  If you know him, you completely agree.  Some of my earliest memories of him are him running around singing "I am the Frito Bandito..."  So yeah, he's an odd duck.  I am really lucky to have him though, there aren't too many girls out there that can look back on their past with fond memories of their dad driving them home from Brownies meetings sharing potato sticks, beer and scratch tickets.  (It was Islesboro...it's like a different universe)  And while I didn't see him as much after my sister and I moved off the island, Dad always remained the same funny, quirky, offbeat Dad we'd always known.

All these years later, and really, not much has changed.  I know Dad loved having my sister and I, and wouldn't have traded us for sons, but the prospect of having grandsons, that just put him over the edge.  He had my stepsons for practice, and thoroughly enjoyed taking them out four wheeling, sledding, lobstering, playing with fire crackers, and other "boyish" activities.  When I called to tell him I was having a boy, well, I could have told him he just won the lottery, and I don't think he could have been any happier.  "By God, that's great!  That's great!  By God, that's great!"  (I think he repeated that about 45 times)  When I hung up with him to call my stepmother and tell her the good news, he arrived at her house within 5 minutes because he simply could not contain his happiness.  She called me later, after he settled down and returned to work, to tell me he was positively giddy, and that she had barely convinced him not to rush out on the next boat to make a trip to toys-r-us for baseball bats, basketballs and four-wheelers.  Like I said, my dad is a nut.  And fortunately for me, and my sister, and my son, he's a great Dad (or Papa) and we love him very much.

Happy Father's Day!

A Garden Update

I know it's only been a few weeks since I planted my garden, but I'm pretty convinced that I'm a master gardener already.  All my plants are growing and look very healthy!  My lettuces are ready to be eaten, my green beans are HUGE, and my tomato plants have nearly doubled in size.  Just what is so hard about gardening?

I know, I know, it will get harder when the bugs discover my plants, and the heat gets to be too much, or the summer ends up a rainy disaster and all my plants rot (let's hope not).  But, for now, I'll just continue to believe that I am truly a master gardener.

Some lovely looking lettuces and my cucumbers

My GIANT green beans!

This is the second garden, the peas are in the front here with herbs to the right

Here is my cherry tomato and the little tiny cantaloupe!

Just call me Farmer Kyla....

Pictures...

I am a touch self conscious.  I've never been a fan of having pictures done, I'm not usually happy with the way I look in them.  There have only been a few times where I've been happy with pictures.  My senior prom was one time, and my wedding (though even those I wouldn't say are super wonderful photos) another.  But somehow, last Thursday, the stars aligned, and I managed to have a good hair day, have on a pretty dress and had arranged to have pictures done of Ben.  I met Molly (who is the younger sister of my high school boyfriend, and whom I hadn't seen in ages) at the beach in Portland where she agreed to take a few photos of Ben for her portfolio.  And since I really don't have many pictures of Ben and I together (mommy tends to be behind the camera, not in front of it) I welcomed the opportunity to get a few shots in of Ben and I together.

The pictures she took were amazing.  She got several of Ben by himself, catching him playing, climbing and grinning.  The pictures of Ben and I together though, are something that I'm going to cherish forever.  She managed to capture us both looking happy and natural, not posing and phony.  They are awesome.  They came out better than I ever could have possibly imagined. 

So, thank you Molly, these mean the world to me.  I wish you the best of luck with your portfolio and your future career making other people feel as happy as I do.

A Long Day!

Yesterday was a bit of a whirlwind.  My morning started out quite nicely as I discovered that a former teacher of mine, whose blog I have been following and taking inspiration from, praised me quite highly as a writer.  (Views From the Dock)  I was completely flabbergasted and flattered to read that, and more than a little teary.  Needless to say, my morning started out well.

Ben quite quickly put an end to that.  Of all the mornings to decide that he didn't want to nap, that he needed to be held, and that he didn't want a bath, yesterday HAD to be that morning.  So while I packed up all the gear we would need for a day and an evening in Portland, I had a whiney, fussy, one year old clinging to me.  Unpleasant.

We did eventually make it out of the house, though we were late, and Ben was not happy about the heat of the car.  Our first stop was the beach/park on Portland's East End for some pictures with Molly.  Now, I haven't seen Molly in quite a few years, and I can distinctly remember the first time we sat down together, when she was about eleven, and she went on and on about how AMAZING  Harry Potter was.  (She was right by the way.)  Anyway, she has now grown up into a lovely young lady who is about as sweet as can be, and was willing to take some pictures of me and Mr. Grumpy.  Fortunately the beach and the park calmed down Ben and we both had fun.  I think she was able to get some really nice shots.

With the pictures done, Ben and I ran a few more errands in the sweltering heat before meeting my husband and getting ready for graduation.  Graduation.  What a big moment that is!  It was a long ceremony, (I think eight million students graduated, ugh) but the speeches were sweet from the students and staff, and at the end the graduates had some fun and got to throw around some confetti and beach balls while hollering and dancing to their class song (Phil Collins?  Really guys?).  I can safely say Don and I were both dry eyed during the event, though Jake's mother and grandmother were having a much harder time.  I know for me, it was an exciting event and I was just so happy to see Jake reach the first of many, many, major milestones that we all have ahead of us.  I didn't think it would affect him quite so much, but I have to say I was touched to see Jake and his best friend with tears in their eyes as they hugged each other and their families.  It was really a nice ending to a very long day.

Jake & Nick

Jake & Marcus

And of course, poor Marcus was quite the trooper as he celebrated his 16th birthday in the sticky Civic Center listening to speeches and watching his brother get smothered with attention.  He is, fortunately, a gracious brother and didn't seem to mind Jake stealing his important day.

Happy Birthday Marcus!



After one last stop for some not-so-fast fastfood, we were all home and in bed having survived the heat, the fussy baby, the ceremony and everything else.  I congratulated my husband on raising an adult and went to sleep grateful that we still have two more to go...

The MacDougall Family

Graduation Time!

It has already been a busy week, and we haven't even gotten to Graduation yet!

Monday we decided to take the family out for a quick dinner to celebrate Jacob's graduation later this week.  We gave him his gift (a very nice laptop!) chatted and ate, and then I drove him home while Don drove Marcus and Ben home.  So Jake and I chatted a little about his plans for the summer (which apparently include some serious bed/couch hopping between here, his mother's and his friends' houses) and then I listened to him chat on his cellphone to his other graduating friends.  Making plans to just hang out and enjoy the freedom that comes with graduation and parents finally allowing some breathing room.  And I can remember feeling exactly what he is feeling ten years ago, when I graduated high school.

Then I have to pause, and repress to the urge to vomit.  How the HECK did I graduate TEN years ago????  It seems absolutely impossible that it was ten years ago that I graduated high school and started working at the cookie shop.  Yikes!  I really think it sounds a bit worse than it is though.  For the longest time, I would swear that I hadn't changed since high school.  My attitude was the same, my personality was the same, even my looks were the same.  And some of that is still true, but recently I've come to the conclusion that I have changed.  I've grown up.  A lot.  I don't think it was college, or marriage, or step-children, or even motherhood that made me grow up.  (Although I'm sure they did play a small part)  Honestly, I think it was three and a half years of pain and disappointment.  It sounds dramatic, I'm sure, but really, going through that, and then coming out the other side finally getting what I'd struggled so hard for, it's really a life changing experience.  I know just what I can handle, how much I can endure, and that I can survive.  And I can look back on that and see just how much I've changed.

So that's how I grew up.  I just hope the next ten years have something a little easier in store...

What Was I Thinking?

Well, I did something stupid.  I wasn't going to do it, I knew better than to even let myself think it, but, in a moment of weakness I decided to re-read Outlander.  Oh how I love that book.  I think this is now the fourth time I've read it and just like the other times, it completely consumed me.  I couldn't focus on anything, I stayed up until 2 am reading, I even dreamed about Jamie and Claire.  And this is the FOURTH time I've read it.  And I SWORE when I picked it up I would just read the FIRST book.  Then about 10 pages into it I decided I would let myself just read the first two books.  Well, I started book two last night.  And I'm promising myself now not to go any further than book three.

I think I have a problem....

Ummm, so now that I've forced myself to post this...I think I'm going to go read.  I'll post again when I'm done with book three...assuming I have the self control to keep from moving on to book four...

***IF YOU HAVE NOT READ OUTLANDER BY DIANA GABALDON STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING AND READ IT RIGHT NOW***

I Did It!!

Well, I did it.  I finally planted vegetable gardens.  This is a really big deal for me.  I've wanted a vegetable garden for years, since we were still living in Limerick.  Every spring I would start planning and talking and trying to convince my husband that "this" was the year.  And every year May would turn to June, and then July, and a garden wouldn't be built and I would have to abandon the plan.

Not this year.  I was determined to have a garden.  My husband didn't see how we'd get all the materials to fit in the car, where was all the dirt coming from, etc, etc...  But, thanks to my book, I convinced him we could fit 4 foot lengths of wood in the car and we'd buy all the dirt in bags, and, sure enough, we got all the materials here without incident.

So Monday, the day scheduled for yard work, I started.  I originally thought building the raised bed gardens would be my husband's job, but since he was busy with another project I decided to start on my own, and, to my surprise, it wasn't that hard to do.  I built two (slightly crooked) boxes all by myself with the help of a drill.  (I'm pretty proud of myself!)  Don did help me mix the dirt and fill the boxes (and I have to say, the dirt we made is really excellent!).  I finished by building the grids to mark the box into one foot squares and then planting the seeds and seedlings in the squares.  I finally did it!  I built them, I filled them, I planted them, and with a little luck, I will finally have veggies this summer!