This morning I woke up with a list a mile long of things I wanted to get done today. Make laundry detergent, clean the house, get some groceries, etc....
Then I checked my email and discovered that as of Friday, I will no longer have a job.
I'm having a bit of a panic attack at the moment. I don't make that much money on a weekly basis, but it's enough to keep our heads above water and I don't have to send my son to daycare. For that, I was thankful. And I really liked my job, I liked that they worked with my schedule, I liked the owners, I liked my co-workers and I liked my customers. And I liked that it was less than 15 minutes from my house.
As the initial devastation is wearing off, I'm trying to figure out just what kind of job I want to replace this. Do I wait tables again? Do I look for a part time "professional" job and put Ben in daycare? Can I afford to put Ben in daycare? I just don't know.
I'm not afraid of a change, I'm just afraid that we're unprepared for change.